So, as you may have seen, I had started my latest IVF cycle for Miracle #2…let's rewind…
I make really sad eggs lol…as in…terrible. How does this make me feel? Eh. I've heard it before and I think, not being able to ever know WHY, sucks the most.
But this round, I'm older. I'm inching up on 35, which is by no means, ancient, but when you have puny eggs at 25…35 ain't any better! My estrogen levels are lower. Things are just going to be tougher.
I knew this signing on this go-round. Infertility treatments are like a constant unattended Merry-Go-Round. As in, you want off the ride because you're getting dizzy and nauseous but no one presses stop. And, you can only take so much creepy fair music haha.
So I jumped on the ride this time, knowing it'd be hard, but I wasn't ready for a totally new experience. We've been through 2 full IVF rounds before- both different, but similar. This one, rocked our world. The birth control made me violently ill day 1. Found a new one that worked better, not great, but better. The migraines started day 1 of injections. And man, did they hit with a vengeance. Days spent in bed, hubby had to call in to work, my sweet 4 year old was attentive and worried about momma. Day 7, we got the call that my estrogen was alarmingly low. The Dr would give me 2 more days to see what happened. 2 days & 10 injections later…we sat face to face and heard the words- "I highly suggest we cancel this round"…what?! This has never happened. Floodgates opened and didn't close for days.
Why?? Well, almost 10 days of stims and he was confident we only had 2 eggs. TWO. My last round, we had 7 and only 2 became viable embryos. So 2 is almost none. Y'all. I freaked. This was going to be it, our last try. So we were crushed.
Fast forward to today.
So, we start our 4th round of IVF on the 16th. I know I know, I said THAT was it. Well, someone needs to convince my heart of that.
What now? The Dr is confident that increasing our dosages of everything will result in higher quality eggs. And he is the expert. He was a vital tool in us receiving our first miracle…so why question him now?!
But this is IT. No, really. We will be on the maximum dose of all 3 medicines, we have zero insurance coverage for infertility treatments and we are confident in this being the last chapter in this story.
Oh and we are taking donations of unused in date medications LOL…I will need 60, yes SIXTY, bottles of Menapur!!! What?! Y'all, I mean it when I say, THIS IS IT. Go big or just give up. Annnd I'm not about to surrender now!!
I'm too anxious to see how this book ends!!