I knew in my heart I was always destined to be a mom but what I didn’t take into consideration was that I was going to be a stat, an infertility stat, a 1 out of every 8 couple’s stat. I wanted to be a mom so bad I could taste it, for more than 4 years I went through more heartache, more negative pregnancy tests, more D&Cs; some days I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. But I did have a shoulder to cry on, a face to scream at when I was so frustrated and someone to hold my hold through it all, my best friend.
Jessica and I met in 1996 in High School, you always hear, God puts people in your life for a reason or purpose, well at the time throughout High School, college and adulthood, I thought God put Jess in my life to be my “sister”, my friend through it all. It was until after I got the call saying that I was going to need to seek a fertility doctor to help me conceive that I knew why Jessica was put in my life so long ago and why we stayed so close. She was rock during the hard times, when I wanted to quit, she gave me strength, when I was angry with God, she told me he has a plan and I was part of something bigger. (BTW- I always hated that saying, “God has a plan”, well he does, sometimes it take months to see and others it takes years). I know Gods plan now, I am meant to help others anyway I can with fertility.
Now lets talk fertility, fertility is the secret society no one talks about. But we need to talk about it, we need to make lawmakers see that we “Cant live without babies”, (I was told this by an insurance company..AWESOME, right?). Jessica and I will be writing posts to share our stories, you will hear from our husbands, mothers, friends, and other fertility survivors. I say survivors because that is what you do, you are a survivor. We want to be here for you as an outlet, someone to share stories with, cry happy and sad tears, scream and more. We will be here for you!